hating the fabricated me

There's this girl who lives oceans apart from me
She is very talented unlike me
We breathe in different airs, speak in different languages and learning different courses
However we experience similar occurrences and seem to think of the same things most of the times
And it is S P O O K Y
She doesnt know because I didnt write about it, she did.
The songs we like, laptop broken, non-24 syndrome, hatred on certain girls, being cranky and why..the list is endless..

Lately Im beginning to hate myself
Okay hate is such a childish word,
Disappointed at myself for being so useless and late in response to life
Im cranky and moody and selfconscious(over him) .. so UN-me
So I checked her latest posts just to..check

She's cranky

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I hate her. Okay 'hate' is a childish word..disappointed over her ungrateful remarks.
She wants to bitch, go on but to tell those who adore you off because you think everybody wants a piece of you, I'd say blah! BIGHEAD

Anyway, anyway my point is

IM CRANKY AND SINCE I WOULDNT LET MYSELF TO CURSE ME,
I ENDED UP SAYING THINGS TO HER BECAUSE SHE IS CRANKY AND BEING A TOOT, TOO~

puas hati until she replies..and the onlineWAR begins +)

Riry Alert!

Considering that Riry will understand so I titled it with her name =)
Its about my obsession towards foreign songs..

I found Vitas
Vitas is an established Russian tenor singer with (of course) very high-pitched voice..
(why la my bro didnt tell me abt him when he used to study there..)
I suspect he is a vampire..or maybe a devil..
He has this wicked look stuck on his face but blessed with ultra angelic voice
Impossible!!

And he shrieks most of the time yet I find it beautiful..
All his songs are haunting and painful and beautiful and sad and interesting and unique and crazy and sweet and sick and all the adjectives exist..
couldnt quite explain it into words..
He's not a human..I believe so
Dan dgn scarynye Im listening to him at 2am ++

He might freak you out if you search for him in youtube so Im offering the best MV for you +) trust me on this one..hehe
  • Vitas - The Star


  • Vitas - Crane's Crying
  • Vitas - Opera#2
  • Vitas - Mama
Do notify me kalau jumpa his cd somewhere

The Divine Masters - Disampingmu

Of all the Malay songs out there
I only like

Lotter & The Divine Masters - Disampingmu

Like how I like Flop Poppy before and still
They're simple and not pretentious like those bands who pretend that they are simple
They sound like love floating freely in the air
Senang.
Ringan.

=)

Suka Suki

Following the post below
I started to imagine nonsense
This is good to embarrass myself later

Halleyah Ain

Zahwan

My future =)

Non-existence relationship

I think I want to like someone

I dont like him yet

I just

I desperately want to like him

And I feel like he could return the feelings too

Yesterday I was sure of it

Today I doubt it

Maybe

Tomorrow Im out of it

Now I m reminded of an old post back in 07

Kiss the nerd, you idiot!
On the downside of my div, we're egoistic BUT we have no balls!
I wouldnt go first for guys that I like.
Even if I want to, I wouldnt want to take the risk.
If I did, I must be very highly dizzy/intoxicated/flirtatious
Exaggerating is what I do best.
Shit. Penakut.

Be my lovecoach.

A bad case of a girl who doesnt know what she wants

I dont feel motivated to study.
I want to elope.

neon-ed.



COLOURS MADE MY PAKCIKS HANDSOME :D
LONG LIVE COLOURS!

being Rihanna

You see, my car's name is GD
I wanted to hop in the car and slam the door asap
It felt like a nano second race
GD won,my body lost.
So the door banged my face
Yes, MY PRETTY FEMININE FACE!
(exaggerated much haha)

I think you can imagine once I got in the car, I was rolling in pain
Hoping there would be no blood
But then I immediately saw red stains on my finger
With my over dramatic reaction I thought I had lost my tooth, or maybe teeth..
Despite the pain I still laughed while covering my mouth
LOL

My friends laughed, considering the imagination of the real GD punching me
Like Rihanna got punched by Chris Brown
And being the silly us, we joked on silly stuff lke rough sex gone bad with GD LOL
AMAZING, NOW I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE PUNCHED ON THE FACE
AND GET YOUR FACE SWOLLEN AND BRUISED
BY NOW
I CANT TALK
I CANT EAT
I CANT BRUSH MY TEETH PROPERLY
I CANT POUT
and Im feeling okay
now i really wonder, do I like it rough?

24/7 saturated in passions

Sometimes, particularly right now, I think my passions will kill me
They (like my mind) are TWISTED and CONFUSING and SCATTERED and UNCATEGORISED.
I just couldnt narrow down the scope of my passions and their lifetime(like my relationship) hardly reach its anniversary..yarh!!

  • Music
I dont understand those who listen to one genre of music only and of one language only
I indulge in everything and since my music geniuses are pretty much diversified themselves
So I ended up listening all genres of music
It makes me dizzy
I like silly bubblegum pop then drowsy draggy then emo then hiphop gangsta then electropop trance whatever that they have these days then punk rock then indie folk then brit pop then sappy ballads then nu metal then RnB soul etc
My brain couldnt make distinctions anymore
Now, I listen and I like. I listen and I dislike.
That simple
You dont understand why, neither do I

Featured artiste of the day
SEO TAIJI

I dont understand him from the day I first heard about him
But his stage presence is woah (is he for real!)
His songs sucked me into his world everytime and I still dont understand him
Good thing after 15 years, he's still active bcoz this man gonna be the subject of my research
Perhaps, he's the definition of Mirotic (spell) ?
Here's one of my fav by him. Quite old. Live from Vladivostok.


  • Fashion
Im lazy and poor
I know a great deal of fashion, surprisingly
If I wasnt lazy and poor, most of my cash will be spent on and for fashion
Maybe thats why God put me in this state
I'll not get married until I manage to get and wear the things I want
  • Man
Buang the expected 'well-educated', 'gentle', 'rich', and 'bersih'
I'd go for someone (by sequence)

  1. PRETTY
  2. MANLY
  3. DORKY
  4. COOL
  5. SKILLED
  6. YOUNG (LOL)

I just love pretty features on a man's face. Like having full lips, shaped jawline, smiling eyes. And it'd be more interesting for someone pretty like that is actually manly. I have a thing for gangsta-ish man too! Like rappers. Most of them are family-man and very romantic..awww!!