without words

I shouldn't have done that,
I should have pretend not to know
Like I didn't see it,
like I couldn't see it
I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasn't listening
Like I didn't hear it,
like I couldn't hear it
I shouldn't have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next,
my lips were surprised
Because it came without words

you're beautiful ost~

tcof is spooky

“Okay babe, if you don’t want to be ducks… let’s be butterflies.”

“Butterflies?” I asked in surprise.

“Yes. Butterflies. Two butterflies flying together. We can be butterfly lovers,” he kissed my neck as a smile came over his face.

Yes, it was a very weird night. He was being romantic with ducks and butterflies, while I was only thinking about awkward thoughts, which always lead to awkward moments.

“Actually, my Chinese friend told me about this Chinese legend called the ‘Butterfly Lovers’ and it has somewhat of a tragic fate. Forbidden love… you know, kind of like Romeo and Juliet? The couple end up not reuniting together until in death.”


“Okay babe, just forget about anything your Chinese friend ever told you. First you ban my duck theory, calling me a male prostitute, and now my butterfly theory, saying we’re deemed to have a tragic fate. That’s just a load of baloney and superstition. I’m telling you we’re Butterfly Lovers and we don’t need to reunite together in death. You’re together with me right now…. and forever.”

“O-okay…” I smiled as I looked at our fingers entwined together. “We’re Butterfly Lovers.”

“The butterfly is a powerful symbol for transformation. It can symbolize joy, success, and love. Don’t you think our love… is kind of like the transformation of a butterfly?”

“H-how?” I stuttered, confusion coming across my face because like he always says, I’m just a clueless girl who doesn’t get a lot of things.

“Cause there’s distinct stages in love. As your relationship progresses into each stage of love, changes happen. Sometimes there are bad changes, and that can weaken the bond between two lovers, but I’d like to think in our relationship, everything has been good. So very good…” He kissed me delicately on the nose. “I’ve learned to love you more and more, as I fall deeper in each stage. Maybe that butterfly represents a strong symbol of metamorphosis.”

I looked up with a smile. “Wow.”

“Change and transformation are inevitable for us all, but it doesn’t have to be tragic.” He swiped a thumb on my lip again, causing me to look up. “You’ve changed from the beginning…”

“I-I have?” I replied, confusion muddling to the forefront of my mind.

“You’ve changed to be a better person, falling in love with me. You’ve changed in a positive way to make another person happy, but at the same time, you’ve grown out of your cocoon and transformed into the most beautiful butterfly.”

beautiful conversation, spooky coincidence

wakil kata hati

..masih seperti dulu --- this

UBV excerpt

"The dark haired woman lies languidly on her bed, eyes closed, drowning in the darkness of her bedroom. She knew this was wrong—she was being weak and pathetic, and this is not the woman he would have wanted to see. But the fire inside of her was small and nearly burnt out, and she just couldn’t be bothered to feel, to want to feel.

All she wanted was to pretend that all her mistakes—her greatest mistake—did not just come back to haunt her."

- 'the good daughter', Una Bella Vita

when it comes to fantasy and imagination..we're better off with Asians who are non-Malaysians
some of our friends are mad talented and super nice
they feed our ego, increase our preferences, entertain our downfalls and decrease our innocence =p
we inspire one another
a different interesting world after all~


" The weight of the things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday "

butterfly lovers


We're butterflies and lovers

We look pretty and happy just being together

We're like butterfly lovers

We let each other go all the time

We're like the cursed butterfly lovers

We always get separated in the end

In the end this love will die and decay

Where would I be?


"To ease another's heartache is to forget one's own."

-Abraham Lincoln

sticky note to your heart

I've never been mushy or romantic my whole life
but now?
I dont mind if the whole world knws pun

I just want to tell you
I love you baby and I'm with you
you can become greater than you already are..
because I have faith in you, my love is you

and sayang you know this ain't just an ordinary love

unkept promise


Riry la ni..knape ingatkan..

dont forget about us IV

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

dont forget about us III

And don't forget about
Late nights, playing in the dark
And waking up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

dont forget about us II

Now every time I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best

dont forget about us I

Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby