take it the way you want it

Have you ever seen a man wearing Levi's unbuttoned?

HAVE YOU???

I've seen one and I plead for it to be once only

An invitation..
It rips your innocence just like that
It is a dangerous s-e-x weapon
You'll die easily for not being able to unbutton it



Im serious, am not horny, am actually scared

emotionally cheating?

for girls out there

my eyes
my ears
my hands

my face
my lips
my heart
my soul remembers you

even when he forms a smile
in my eyes, you are smiling
even when I hold his hand
i feel your hand

my mind erased you though
my heart emptied you out though
you’ve clearly been erased but
even now it’s still no use

though time is erasing your figure now
and my mind that was filled with you is being emptied

Though I empty my heart
My body remembers you
The memory
The more I erase it,
the more vivid it gets
The memory
The more I hate it,
it comes closer..

Is it breathing inside me
In the dark, when will it close its eyes
But even if I walk forward, its you
Even if I turn around, its you
Even when I’m held in his arms
My body, it only feels you

The memory of you,
Even within the presence of someone near me
when they’re just passing by
I’m still crazy for you because
My body remembers you
..I still remember you

one of my favourite songs.

at least i still remain a girl within the realm of hypocrisy

I feel like bitching.

since

she's not my friend but a friend of a friend,

she's a fellow blogger,

she's famous and has fans too,

I dont want to gain an official hater..

I will not mention her name.
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seriously girl,

blogging in Malay language is fine, in fact I adore that because my skill is confined to bahasa rojak(manglish) only which is nothing to be proud of..

but bitching and cursing and trying to sound similar like the blokes' blogs that we both know while you're looking feminine and demure like that..??

please, it makes me sick. what are you, tranny?

p.s : oh ya, kalau memang kau yang terasa, sukahati makbapak aku la kan? kau pun boleh mengutuk jugak kalau nak.

Euww!!

this isnt reminiscing...

precious handbag. status:lost.
precious NYinaball. status:broken.
precious friend. status:missing.

...this is anyeong

my disorder should be infected to all myspace minors

compliments.

loathe.

I.

unless its a fun one.

I almost got struck by lightning because I refused to accept mother's "you look good in that top!" and mother couldnt understand why I couldnt fake my response at least. I ignored her and she ignored me until delicious food unites us back. let's not count on how many times me and my family members have a strained relationship because of it.

and I scored the highest mark again, in a test. strange. I even wondered to myself..did I cheat or something? had my blood turns blue or what? I love my friends but when they praise me, I desperately want to hate them. Being a recipient of compliments is scary. I feel nervous for some unknown reasons and I hate my fake smile. hideous! so please, dont fuglize my face anymore.

exception to the general rule:

self-boasting is still essential to boost my life

wallpapered heart

DW: Milk Bath On a Guy
*added to fantasy list*

Girls like me adore Lee for sure
He dares to go beyond modesty the way we wanted
and he's YOUNGER ;p

i have repented

[purely fiction]

"another one Shot In The Dark for me, please.."

bitter
that's how I like my drink.
Unfortunately he's not being favoured by others. Unlike Ivy.
Ivy oh Ivy.
I know her. I mean who doesnt? she's part of The Alcohols, you know the very helpful and powerful family in the neighbourhood.
She has quite a few sweet names but I call her Poison Ivy.

Whenever love bids goodbye, people tend to choose her as their bestfriend.
True, she allows you to cry non-stop, you can curse and blame everyone in front of her for the pain and sufferings you have to endure including God..
She even allows you to throw things or beat people..and she will defends you still.
She makes his/her face disappears from your naked eyes
She authorizes you to vomit and collapse without guilt.
She shuts you down from thinking about the jerk.
To simplify, she does what Shot obviously couldnt.
On the surface, she may be a good friend to others..but not to me.

Didnt Poison Ivy tells you that as much as she tells you Sex is the reason why that jerk couldnt stay with you, she's also an ally to Sex..they are known to be sometimes partners, sometimes nemesis..you can never count on both of them. Think about it, when you wakes up to a stranger beside you, isnt it weird how she can never be contacted by anyone the morning after?
Did she also tells you that she can take care of your reality but not your dreams..the moment Dream enters..bringing past love along, what happens to you all alone in the dark? Scary, isnt it.
Hell..do you NOW realize that she didnt care about your fate at all during those times you actually relied upon her for your dear life??

So..
When love bids goodbye to me, I need to stay awake for as long as I can..
I call for Shot.